my best friend is my blog

i have nothing to do tonight, which normally is a welcome reprieve from my normal routine: studying, eating, sleeping, watching tv. wait. why is that a welcome reprieve. oh. well usually i'm doing my normal routine with other people, minus the sleeping. so spending time alone is a welcome reprieve, i mean to say.

but there's a difference between spending time alone because you're tired, or you need to detox or whatever, and the much more unfortunate case of spending time alone because your best friend is your blog. today, after i watched the indians get slaughtered by the red sox, i took a pity nap, woke up and eat dinner, and went into my room to do absolutely nothing for the rest of the night. this would be okay if it wasn't 7:30pm. what does a guy do with 6 hours to himself?

but moving on, and speaking of moving on: i've decided to take these two words out of my vocabulary when having meaningful conversations: nevermind, and whatever. when i used to say "nevermind", it usually meant that i was going to say something stupid, unwise, or just mean. but i realize that if i think stupid, unwise or mean thoughts, then those descriptions probably fit me, and that should be conveyed honestly to other people. so i've decided to take that word (or more correctly, phrase - never mind) out of my vocabulary. whatever, i mostly just use that as a transition in conversation, sometimes out of frustration and sometimes not. but people interpret it as self-centered resignation or teenage elitism. so, goodbye whatever. goodbye nevermind.

ok. when i decided to write a new post right now i wanted to talk about music and an interesting trend i've been noticing. i'm still deciding whether to just bring it up randomly. is this annoying for people? to be so far inside my head, describing every thought? i'll bring the music thing up another day. i just thought of something else.

when people say or type sentences in the form "i'm ____, gerund ____", i can only think of one thing: lolcats. ur in my head, describing my thoughts. im on the compy, blogging bout stupid things. actually, the general idea of... gosh am i an idiot? the general idea of noticing something and relating it to something else is really interesting. yes, i am an idiot - that last sentence completely butchered the idea i was trying to convey. what i mean is, when i look at people's behavior, i try to reduce their actions in variables and parameters, since that's what i look at all day in my econ classes. or if you're a psych major, you look at people and fit their behavior in the patterns and trends you study. or, more interestingly, a writer, you see the world differently and it's all relative to what you think about, look at or study.

i normally find this "style" of writing really annoying. it seems gimmicky and obnoxious. next time i will just talk about music. next time you won't be in my head.